Trust is difficult for all of us. We naturally trust what we see with our eyes and what our senses experience. It is easy to trust in comfort and equate creature comforts with God’s love, His approval. Trusting God requires faith, especially through difficult times. And we know the definition of faith: “The realization of what is hoped for and evidence of things not seen” (Hebrews 11:1). Christians have to practice what we know to be true, and yet can only see with the eyes of our hearts. Effective life in the Spirit, following Christ, takes time, and not a little perseverance.
We often meet Jesus in an instant, through a personal encounter, and then it takes a lifetime to know just a little bit about Him. I met Him in crisis. When I realized Jesus was speaking to me, answering my prayers, I was amazed. Me? I felt special. Then I began praying, “Lord, please don’t let a day pass without You revealing Yourself to me.”
His message, His voice, began through others I met along my daily journeys. Early in my new relationship with Jesus people I met randomly would answer questions I had asked internally, sometimes years earlier. Later on, the myriad connections of Scripture readings and Mass homilies and in the quiet of my heart developed an awareness of the Spirit. The holy Spirit is always with us. I have found that the difference between my B.C. (before Christ) and A.D. (in the year of our Lord) years is now I know to seek the Lord’s face through the Sacraments, Scripture, prayer, and worship.